Sunday, April 23, 2006

death penalty

I'm not sure where I stand on the issue of the death penalty. Killing surely won't bring back the lost lives. And definitely, a mistake does not correct itself by making another mistake. Yet what if you know the victims? Or worse, you're the victim? (knock on the wood)

Jesus taught us to love and forgive; death penalty is definitely not within this context. Kasi naman ang tao, kailangan pang takutin bago tumino... And more often than not, kahit nga meron ng capital punishments, crimes still exist.

I'm not inspired by our president's actions against this punishment, in fact wala na nga akong alam sa current events e. Instead I was moved by the book The Chamber by the infamous John Grisham. It's about Sam Clayhall, a Klucker who was sentenced to die through the gas chamber and his long lost grandson representing him. I haven't finished it yet, actually I don't plan to finish it anymore. I'm discouraged of sad endings. I can't stand stories the don't end with "they live happily ever after". Sobra akong naaapektuhan haha!

That's the first pocketbook I've opened after... I don't know. Antagal na rin. Ofcourse Madisson Finn series don't count since I'm talking of my-age novels. Harry Potter 6 ata yung last.

Dami ko pa naman nasa listahan na babasahin... tsk tsk. Maybe I'd try a new strategy. Yung one chapter a day. Hmmm... righteous.

Monday, April 17, 2006

incOmplete and free

"hindi ako sanay ng ganito..."

No, I'm not talking of my unbelievable low grades. Nope, it's not them. I've outgrown this kind of feeling towards the 2.5 grade and below. Normal na sakin to.

Iba na ngayon.

This may sound bizarre pero kanina, when not a shadow of my dearest was in sight, I felt... incomplete. Duh, I know I don't see him everyday (his picture doesn't count, I'm speaking of seeing him in flesh), pero I have this mentality na pagna-feel kong magkikita kami, we'd see each other. But today, it's different. At ang bigat sa dibdib. Haaay... eto na naman ang depression, timing pa ngayong kailangan kong magconcentrate for my exam on Wednesday.

"akala ko I'll wait forever for him"

Until I met Denver.

I may not be sure about my feelings with Denver pero I know for sure that he has outweighed my childhood loved one, yung dating iniisip kong para sakin talaga but time's not yet ours... yung hinihintay kong makarealize one day na ako lang ang para sa kanya.

I can't explain yet why is this so, I just feel it. Siguro dahil I'm not yet through with this love storm (is there a such?hehe) but someday, sana masagot ko rin tong mga to.

Actually, I don't want our love story to end yet . I still believe in miracles. Haha! Poor me...

Friday, April 14, 2006

reflections this Holy Week

I'll start with my studies, my dreams.

Then sa aking kabangagan.

I'd include my family and other loved ones.

Other weaknesses.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

"Pray first, aim high, and stay focused."

Pray first before you do anything, aim and shoot high in your goals, and stay focused on God. Pass this on in order that someone else might be blessed. Never let others discourage you concerning your past. The past is exactly that - " the past." Live every day one day at a time. And remember that only God knows our future and that he will not put you through any more than you can bear. Do not look to man for your blessings but look to the Lord. He can open doors for you that only He is able to do. Doors that you will not slip through but doors that only He has prepared in advance for you in your favor. Wait, and be still, patient: keep God first and everything else will follow.