Excerpt from a girl's diary

(this is not my diary)

December 9

Ang galing... last night was a dream come true. Though I wasn't able to capture the moments in my cam. definitely, they're in my treasure chest. If I can recall it perfectly, the happiest moments in my life (aside from my family moments) always include him.

Best part of it? Aside from the fact that I saw HIM, we have talked: just us. An eye-to-eye conversation with no pretensions and just about our lives. Aw, I've regained my good impression on him. Despite his dark days, I felt his good side and this part I'm lucy to experience.

Hay naku, eto na naman ako. I'm getting carried away again my the love storm.

Last night, my vision for him was reinstated. The vision of him being an achiever, yes, I can see it again. I'm glad he was given this kind of opportunity and even gladder that he grabbed it. Though he's thinking of going to Singapore someday. The good part on that plan is he continues to dream.

I know I mentioned before that I no longer ask God for him due to his workings in the past five years, that Iwould not want anyore a future with him (as if naman he wants a future with me as well) but I realized last night that this is now rebuttable. I have proven that despite this 5 dark year, his other 17 years and his core makings is still intact. He's still the person I loved.

Dying to hear the icing on the cake? He treated us like a perfect gentleman he is ! Napaka-obvious ko lang talaga and my feelings that I can't even breath evenly whenever he's around. Milestone na kaya yung usapan namin kagabi. Yung pinuntahan ko siya kahit wala pa yung third wheel, yung kaming dalawa lang sa table, nagkukwentuhan! Just the thought of us alone already melts me, seriously!

So you can just imagine my fear last night! But oh well, I'm good at pretending, er my social skills are polished naman so I survived it. I am so ecstatic that I lived through it, now I'm in cloud nine.

Nikki's Bucket List

Place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not.

( ) Walked in a flood (thanks to the overpriced pajak boys sa la salle. di ko rin ata kaya)

(X) Eaten balut (and penoy) (hanggang sabaw lang ako and matigas na puti)

(X) Eaten kambing (goat) (Batanguena e! But I wasn't aware then.)

( ) aso (dog) (ditto Grace, NEVER!)

(X) palaka (frog) (yeah, tastes like chicken. I'll eat one as long as I'm not told what they truly are)

( ) bayawak (giant lizard)

( ) Eaten adidas (chicken feet)

( ) helmet (chicken head)

(X) or isaw (chicken intestine) (love this! basta kilala ko yung tindera-- that she cleans them well)

(X) Rode a Tricycle (oo naman-- Filipino to)

(X) Rode a caritela (sa Intramuros)

( ) Rode a trolley by the houses along the riles (railroad)

(X) Been to the Rice Terraces (yeh! love this trip)

(X) Been to Star City

(X) Been to Enchanted Kingdom

(X) Been to Shooting the Rapids

(X) Eaten with your fingers from banana leaves

(X) Eaten taho (soft bean curn with caramel sauce peddled in the street by vendors)

(X) Eaten aratiles or macopa

(X) Attended Simbang Gabi (Midnight Mass )

(X) Played patintero

(X) Played Tumbang Preso

(X) Played Piko

(X) Played Sungka

( ) Played with Spiders (Gagamba derby) (di talaga ako mahilig maglaro ng mga hayop e)

(X) Played Chinese Garter

(X) Played Chinese Jackstones

( ) Climbed a coconut tree (mango tree lang)

(X) Danced the Tinikling

( )Got on a Jeepney where you had to stand

(X) Got on a jeepney

(X) Rode in a banca

( ) Caught fish in the canal during a rainy day (with my Kuya sa La Union)

( ) Participated in Ati-Atihan

(X) Had a salagubang (beetle) for a pet

( ) Eaten fish head

( ) Got drunk from Lambanog (coconut wine)

(X) Attended a Prosesyon (Procession of the Stations of the Cross) during Holy Week

(X)visited an inmate at Bilibid prison

(X) Attended an inuman (drinking session) (social networking)

(X) Gone to the beach in summer

(X) Gone to Baguio

(X) Gone to Sagada

(X) Gone to Palawan

(X) Gone to the the Visayas (Iloilo, Bacolod and Guimaras-before the oil spill)

( ) Gone to Mindanao (shocks!!! I want this crossed since college!!!)

(X) Lived in any other part of the Philippines (La Union)

(X) Cut class (for noble reasons like accomplishing the school paper, mag room-to-room announcement)

(X) Told manananggal, aswang, capre stories during a brownout or rainy night

(X) Slept under a mosquito net

(X) Slept on a banig (mat)

(X) Polished the floor with coco husk (bunot)

(X) Tasted durian

(X) Eaten pandesal filled with condensed milk

(X) Dunked pandesal into hot coffee

(X) Rode a kalabaw

(X) Took a bath under a "poso" or by the "ilog"

(X) Used a pumice stone when taking a bath

(X) Tumulay sa kawayan (walked on a bamboo pole)

(X) Kept Vigil at the Cemetery for Nov. 1st

( ) Had their first date in Luneta

() Gone inside Malacanang Palace

(X) Gone shopping at 168 Divisoria

( ) Was punished by kneeling down on rock salt or monggo beans.

(X) Gone shopping in Quiapo

( ) Eaten champorado with chokolate and tuyo. (still to try the tuyo)

(X) Eaten Dirty Ice Cream

( ) Watched horse races at the karerahan.

(X) Rode horses at Wright Park in Baguio

(X) Drank Batangas barako coffee

(X) Eaten pinasugbo,

(X) otap, or

(X) piaya

(X) Greeted your grandparents or elders by kissing their hand or having them touch your forehead

(X) Seen Taal Volcano

(X) Called anyone "pare/mare", "tol", or "boss/bossing"

(X) Watched the sunset by Manila Bay.

haunted me

My greatest regrets in life
(that if I have a chance to correct them, I would gladly do so as long as the lessons I learned from them won't be lost)

1. being close to a cousin
2. not loving myself more when I was in my puberty age
3. foolishly written hate letters to a classmate
4. advised my lola the wrong thing last Feb 28