leaving home

I'm much better now.

Ealier, mukha akong sira. I was like in a telenovela; crying alone in the bus for a shallow reason. Ganito talaga ako, mababaw ang luha, weak... iyakin! Though I've been doing this every week, I found it hard to leave home this morning-- very hard that my mind was lost in space (you can actually snatch my bag and I wouldn't know), I couldn't breath well, I was numb. Basta. I can't explain it. I don't like to leave Noelle! Ayan, naiiyak na naman ako. Isasama ko nga sana kaso ayaw ni Tatay. Actually, she won't be harmed if I leave. I just don't like the fact na si Nina lang ang kasama niya dun. Asar, naiyak na talaga ako dito sa comlab, na naman, MAG-ISA.

Pause muna sa pagdadrama. FYI, he's here! As in RDDC! Oh well, our eyes met again, he passed my side twice na (wala siyang pabango man lang?) the second time e tiningnan pa niya yung ginagawa ko (feeler!) and guess sino kasama niya??? as if there's a need to ask diba? e di yung laging naka-orange pero di naka orange ngayon.

Back to dramatizing, oh well, ganito lang ako ka-attach sa pamilya ko. Ang Nanay kasi e!

Grabe ang state ng bahay kahapon: tambak na ligpitin, kabundok na tiklupin, maamag na mga tinapay, more than full na basurahan... lahat na! haaay, IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT MOTHERS. I just can't... (~~,)