Sunday, April 08, 2007

a trivial question

I’m fully aware that I’m already twenty and having finished my college degree with so-so distinction, I’m more in-charge now of my life compare before when my parents will still have mostly the final say. Now that I’ve accomplished what they want me to prioritize – their only wish we’d attain before anything else – I can’t blame my aunt for her reaction when I said I still have no one to introduce to her yet. For the nth time, I was thrown with this mocking question. Actually that time it was “O siguro naman may boyfriend ka na?” Before it was just plain “May boyfriend ka na?” Now, since she knows my father can no longer object she did bother to update her ever-loving question. Paksyet. Why on earth do I need to have a boyfriend? Hehe, bitter?
Seriously, this constant question has somehow affected my self-esteem. Imagine, a young mind of 14 or 15 being asked such question every time she sees me as if this is the latest trend that I should be wearing at my age. Maybe she doesn’t want me to end up like her, aka an old maiden, but this isn’t a reason to press me something that’s so inconsequential. She herself should have known the perks of being single. And duh, I’m still young and I still have other important things in my mind right now like the board exam. I realize, good thing I didn’t obsess myself to this pressure and throw myself to immature feelings which I believe isn’t supposed to be as I’m still NBSB. I expect this question will stay around until the time I finally introduce someone. And just so my answer will also be adjusted to the currents events, from “Bawal pa daw sabi ni Tatay” I will have to cope up with my smile and “Yes, yes Tita. Isang araw, makikilala niyo rin silang lahat.”
Honestly, it wasn’t because of my father’s warnings why I haven’t had a boyfriend. My father won’t have any reason to preclude me as he knows well that I’m responsible. No joke. And I’m not even bragging. Although I admit, he still isn’t ready for any news that says “Tatay may boyfriend na ako.” Hehe, I can still imagine his face when I brought this up two years ago. Of course that wasn’t serious. I just wish. I admit I’m curious of how it feels to actually have only one person to text every night of good night and sweet dreams and how different things are when the feeling is mutual.
I remember we jokingly made a motto that has an indirect impact on our sanity during the modular. It was “We need a boyfriend.” It’s unreal if I’d say I never wanted one nor needed one. If only I can control the choices of others, I’d probably have atleast ten guys. I loved before and is still loving yet a relationship can never be one-sided so… the hell.
Proactive thinking: just in case this aunt of mine changes her inquiry to “Bakit wala ka pang boyfriend?” what could probably be the best punch line to tell her? It can’t be: “Pakshet, utang na loob, tantanan niyo na ako.” The fact that I don’t really have one yet at this age already spells L-O-S-E-R so I don’t want to sound worse than that. It isn’t also wise to throw the question back to her as that could provoke a no-dollar-for-you-on-Christmas idea. Any suggestion?


At Saturday, April 14, 2007 6:29:00 pm, Blogger cRazY_kRis said...

easy for me: Tita,,,I don't need a Man!

And I don't really think age + being single spells LOSER...most of the time it actually defines who are the serious deserving ones from those that merely play around...

at least that's what i see...though of course there are exceptions...


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