the pact

In my walk to this page of my God-given life, I’ve felt and tried pain, even condemned and swore unhappiness. More often, I had taken for granted the blessings sent my way and just laugh them off. And where have I gone?

Oooops. Made a wrong opening paragraph. Our lives are full of drama series na – just turn on the TV and you’ll see what I mean – so let’s try something light. Comical? I don’t know, we’ll see.

Prelogue: Closures exist to give way to new openings. Naging uso ito sa mga relasyong romantiko, as far as my romance novels are concerned, whenever there’s a break up. Or even petty events such as crushes and infatuations that led to nothing. They say to be able to let go of someone who isn’t for you according to His plans, things must be settled well and clear for the peace of soul and self-composure.

Wait lang. Hindi talaga ‘to one of my drama series.

Just a recap: Dumdum saw, Dumdum came, Dumdum conquered. And I lost. I tried to return to the battle but after almost a year of poems and rants, I had enough bruises to heal and so many lessons to ponder and to keep me busy. All this time, I don’t know if I ever mentioned this before but somehow I didn’t keep the fight all by myself.

I was oblivious to another battle happening beside me.

I was so stunned to know she's on the same boat. As in freaking in the same boat. But similarly, we are now both sailing away to another page of our lives. And in this journey, I feel a strong urge that the process will not be complete without seeing my dumdum officially get out of my sea, thus the decision to attend the march.

Being my sole witness and guru (yes you were), I insist that she must go with me-- for richer or for poorer, may klase o wala. I've made the arrangements as early as beginnning of time so no turning back now. Only a major exam can stop us from going. Nakataga na 'to sa bato. And I've good reasons for this obsession, good lang, I can't say it's worth dying for.

Closure is one reason; to complete the journey-- para may ending diba? Another is my curiosity who that Muni is. Thanks to my premium memory and indifference I missed the wonders my environment offers during the early years and that includes knowing this Muni bee. Next is 'She knows my Dumdum while I don't know her dumdum' so I must know who that one is. Pero the light has died out and I realized I can go on with my life without discovering this one: siya na nagbigay ng isa pang dahilan para kami'y mapalapit sa isa't isa. I'm afraid if I pursue this baka mabulok lang ang natatanging bagay na nagpapula ng aking ngiti sa panahong ito. I'd rather put this to grave now. And the last one? Nah, not a big deal in general pero for me, it is. Sakin na lang yun. Let's just say I love good memories, like yung first-time moments... My heart inflates and I feel heaven whenever I do, even simple, little (and silly) things with the persons I treasure most... hindi kailangan grande.

Think I'm pathetic? I don't mind. Dito ako masaya.